The Girl Boy Thing

A girl (Miami) which belonging to a good family and well mannered. She is interested in to read books and poem. She is peaceful and pursuing an international university for his literature.  There is a boy (John) in her neighbor's home, which has an extreme opposite nature from her. He likes loud music, adult dance and funny things to do. He is from lower family and not that manner as she. John wants to be a baseball player and he is captain of his school team, John uses to irritate her as much as possible. When Miami tries to read, he starts loud music. When the Miami misses school bus, then take over his friend’s car beside’s her.
    Once they went to school visits to a museum and accidently teacher chose them in a same group of two. They were fighting to each other on this in front of the sculpture. Suddenly, a wind came through their body and their soul exchanged their body means Miami has boy soul and gone have girl soul. They were confused about it and could not think about what is going on. They think whether this only for one day, but it was not.
    Now they were with their new life. Everything was same, but for them this is non- thinkable. Dressing, lifestyle, friends were in each one. Miami doubted to wear panty and bra and John was trying to adjust his penis. The first day started, the same things were going on. The incident was really funny for me. When John went to the toilet then he saw the boy urine passing thing. He hesitated and checks out there. But for Miami, it was heaven thing for her. Nude girls were around her. She was watching like breasts and anus show, which is so memorable for her. During all this, they were facing some trouble for strange stuff respectively. Like Miami don’t know about baseball and John don’t have interest in the poem. Because of their fighting, they started to screw each other. John told his girlfriend that I don’t want a girl who has a mustache and he broke up with her. To take revenge on this, Miami starts flirting with guys and went with them to drink in his house. After too much drink, that guy sexual force on Miami but she ran away. Other side John went with his friends and enjoyed beer too much and got hangover in the morning. Suddenly a change came in Miami and she took care of John. Now, both of them have understood that this is not that what they want. So they started to help with each other skills. John tells her about the poem that how much they have feeling and meaning and Miami started training for juniors baseball match. During these days, they became close and knew good things about each other. One day on the dinner table, Miami’s mother told her tJohnt meet john lostre and when asked why? Then she got an answer that she told to her mom about John that he is lost and has genetic addiction. Thus, again, they became parted. In between, an interview call letter came to Miami and to John, his dream match of baseball. During helping of each other, they made feeling in their good heart or can say they started loving each other.
   Miami’s interview and johns’ match were on the same day. In the morning, Miami went for her interview. Without thinking, no stress just casual and she could not give a good answer of any question. Suddenly, she remembered some poems which were taught by John in learning session. The professor was impressed, but he told her to wait for our call letter. Miami gets his stuff and run away to see Johns match. Beside this, johns’ match had started. In the early minutes of the match, he could not do well. As Miami entered in the stadium, his play arouses and with speed and power, he made space and reached to goal. He was a match wining player. After the match, a club member came to him to invite for his club. It was most beautiful moment of his life. Miami also was very happy for him. She tried to talk to him, but it could not be happening. After two days, Miami got his admission letter. It was celebration time for both. In between, their souls were exchanged again. Now the boy had a boy’s soul and girl had a girl’s soul, but they were aware about falling for each other.
   In celebration party, both came. They told their feeling and John proposed Miami to marry and she accepted it.

Home Return

If you are living outside from home, then definitely your excitation of coming back home will be very high. Packing is usually finished two weeks ago then students concentrate on their studies. There is competing about finishing exams and getting home first. As I wrote my last exam, and making fun of others that they would be still there and I am heading to my home. But suddenly I became to know that I did not get my train ticket even then I decided to take my journey with non reservation ticket. With consecutively two no sleeping night and cold winter air which was blowing my head and full one day fast, I reached to my uncle’s home. After a good sleep, my uncle asked me to attend a wedding. Well, I felt good cause I was dying to see the new hot girls and I said yes. In a wedding, people come to meet other people and discuss about relationship, business, child education and living. And boys like me, seeks good looking girl. But that day, luck was not with me and I spent my day same as other guys like Having lunch and dinner, and meet to close relatives. Plus of attending a wedding is people can see you and we can make our recognition in the society which very important when you are in the age of marriage. At the wedding, I saw many types of person which has specific thing. Some incident happened to me who was awkward for me, but I had an experience which was necessary for me.
And finally, I reached at home after 3 days journey…..:)

The Things That Are Not

The things you do for love’s sake
But the same you ask not;
The verses of love you write
But most you get replied not;
The days you want to act stubborn
But you know well you can not;
The nights you stay awake in bed


And wish it wasn’t so;
The dreams you see with open eyes
And wish they could be re-told;
The love you hold in your heart and life
That the world would appreciate not;
The only hands that can hold you well
Are the ones that stay closed;
The hopes you create in waking hours
Your nightmares burn them all;
And when you write all this down,
Trust me it will hurt you more;


But you still think of such moments
And want them to be not;
The way you wish the things to be,
The very things that are not.

Sleepy Child

My thoughts are not that much more beautiful,

I can’t keep these in your flowery eyes,

Let I touch them,

And they become good dreams.

These thoughts are influenced by the world,

This passed through the flames,

The boat has collided with hills,

Due to not getting success,

They are injured.

As a butterfly starts to fly,

You open your eyes with the rising sun,

Rainbow dreams,

Will be trapped and fulfilled.

Cracks in my rough palm,

To your silky hair,

I won’t touch with irresponsibly.

Collapse in cracked skin,

Any hair any color any intention,

Successive future,

Would be snapped,

And coming world,

Will blame me.

Your eyebrows are swimming,

On your eyes.

Soft as cotton,

Morning sleep,

Stuffs before waking up,

Covering you,

And your mind,

Will be ready to do something.

We get impotence ourselves,

Only from you,

You’re hungry and thirsty,

Has some aim for us.

Touching of soft lips,

I would give love to your check.

Keep sleeping with a smile,

Sun will wake you up.

WHO I AM

I was looking at myself. Who I am? I typed in Google. There was a link about this. He asked about my face, eyes, hair and then he showed my animated photo. I thought that's what a funny thing it is. But I saw that photo again, then I realized that I am a human. What humans do? Answer to me was really difficult to me. Whatever I saw in the world till now was coming into my head and I was comparing it to me. I ignored other person and thought about myself. I am (my name), who is in (college) pursuing bachelor degree in difficult circumstances. No friends, no social life and being a puppet of others. Guys, who is making fun of me, even they did not care what I want from them. Whenever I talk to them, they look like rapper that's ready to pent up their feeling on me with full of strength. I don’t have any answer to them, that’s why I am not able to answer them. Then I felt that I am. What can I do? So that people can’t raise their voice in front of me. I do not want them under me, but at least casual talk. Time in that we can enjoy, can be happy and loose our burden of life, academics. More than half of the day, my mind is thinking about nonsense and nonproductive things daily. I don’t know what should I do?... :(

For My Love

Let me take a dip in your eyes,

Let me lost in your eyes world,

Without you, life looks like dessert

Without you, my eyes, seeking you,

I don’t know what love is,

I don’t know what is waiting,

Your eyes have told me everything which you could not say,

Without knowing you, I have inebriation for you,

I have a path and sky; even then I missed my direction

Let me take a dip in your eyes,

Let me lost in your eyes world,

Without you my life like cloistered,

Being with you is only my life of interest,

Give me delectation for my life anyhow,

Only this much I am asking from you,

Let me take a dip in your eyes,

Let me lost in your eyes world,

At every place, I feel you,

And I keep you safe,

In breath, in dreams, in heart,

I am singing your talk,

Let me take a dip in your eyes,

Let me lost in your eyes world,

Keep Walking

Keep walking, keep walking,

With sun, keep walking,

We become slaves in night,

Sun releases us,

Sun wipes out with rays,

And he gives the world new color.

Sun got wining, season become in night,

Keep walking with stars and moon.

At diamante earth,

Nature gave us leg to walk,

Decoration of the world,

Did sitting lady cross to sky.

You got freedom today, who will call you slaves since today,

You are owner of all seasons, keep walking with time.

Through flowing rivers,

Their combination makes giant sea,

Unity of clouds,

It covers entire earth.

Dead name of stopping, all is bullshit at further way,

Be aggressive, keep walking with age.

Moving of humans makes city,

Crowed makes temples,

Keep pace with world,

Keep walking.

The Story of Torch Seller

He used to sell light torch around road circle. For some days he didn’t come, but this time he seemed different with beard and a long shirt.

I asked him ‘where were you been? And this bear?’

He answered ‘I was out of station’.

Then he moved his hand on his bearded face.

I said ‘you are not having torches’.

He said that ‘he left that business. He got consciousness and till now he was wasting his time’. He mentioned.

I said ‘you are planning to get rid of this. Someone become dumb who gets light to his soul. Who did give you this lesson?

He was hurt by my words. He said ‘don’t tell cruel words for me. Everyone has soul. You are hurting your own soul by hurting others.

I said ‘it is alright. But how did you get this change suddenly? Your wife left you? Are you not getting borrowed? Baker is bothering you? Did you been caught? How did that outer enter in your soul?’

He said ‘you are guessing wrong. Nothing such that happened. It was an incident which changed my life. I wanted it to be secret. But I am telling you because I am leaving this place today.’

He started to his testimonial

Before five year since today, I was nervous and sitting with my friend. We had sky touching question that how to money? We hold its leg and were trying to solve it. We could not solve it even after sweating. My friend told me that it is in deep earth, we won’t able to do it, let’s leave it here.

We saw each other’s face but it was in front of us again. We can’t leave it. Let’s solve it. We need to do business and we starts to try our luck in different direction. And we met after five years here.

Friend told me that we start journey together?

I said ‘no, in story of luck checker, they move alone. In group, lucks crash each other.

Then we start our journey separately. I started to sell light torch. At road and ground I make crowed and tell dramatically “everywhere is Cimmerian these days and nights are too dark. Even hands don’t know how to move. Men can’t see path and misdirected. Needles are stick on their leg. They fall down and get blood. Dangerous dark is around him. Lions and tigers are walking and snakes are creeping. Dark is swallowing everyone. When any man goes to toilet, he steps on snake. Snake stings that man and man dies.

Sir, you have seen that how people are scared. In daytime they get fear of night. It is so simple to do.

When people are scared then I say ‘dark is there but light is also there. That light I came to give you. That light is in sooraj torch who remove dark and brings light. Buy this torch and remove dark from your life. Whoever wants this, raise his hands.

Sir, thus I sell torch and being survive.

According to promise, I went to same place where we suppose to meet. I spent whole day to see him but he did not come. What happened to him? Is he alive or not?? I don’t know.

I started searching of him.

One evening, when I walking on road, I saw that at near ground has too much light. Dias was decorated with loudspeaker. Many people were bowed in ground. Dias had silk curtains and one man was sitting. That man was healthy, combed long bear and hair till chest.

I sit at the corner of the ground.

That man seems filmy priest. He starts lecture with sweet voice. He was speaking like someone is speaking secret from sky is coming in ears.

He was telling that ‘I am seeing man in dark. Something is blow off. This is Cimmerian age. He abandoned it in his stomach. Men are tired with this. They lost their path. Even soul is in dark. Blindness does not able to distinguish. I am seeing that man’s soul is hurting.’

They keep speaking same thing and people were listening.

Almost I had laugh. 2-3 times I stopped it but I could not control. People scold me.

That person told in the end that no needs to fear. Where is dark, there is light. Dark has light rays. It does not appear. You need to find out it. You need to blow it inside your soul. I pray for you guys. I want that unbeaten light in your soul. Come to our temple for trying it.

And I got I huge laugh then people made me run away from there. I stood up near the dais.

Those men were stepping down to get car. I saw him carefully. Due to bear, I hesitated but I didn’t have. I recognized him. And spoke ‘hey’. I was about to say but he carried me in the car. We will talk at mansion.

Then saw a driver.

I saw his life standard at his mansion. But I started talk openly to my friend.

‘You seem too much changed.’

He told seriously ‘changes are rule of the life.’

I asked ‘do not talk about philosophy. And tell me how did you earn this much money.’

 He asked ‘what did you do in last five years?’

I said ‘I use to sell the torch. Tell me truth, you are also torch seller.’

He said ‘you feel it. Why?’

I explained that same thing you say as I. you make it secretly and I tell it directly. I show people fear of dark and same thing you were doing. Definitely, you sell torch.

He said ‘I do not sell the torch. Why would I? I am priest, philosopher.

I said ‘whatever you are been called but you sell the torch. We tell same words.

These are different modes, I think; you sell your own company’s torch. You people keep having dark. Tell me, even you people told anytime that there is light in the world still? Never know? Why? Because you people want to see your own company’s torch only. Even I keep telling people all day that there is dark. Tell me company’s name?

I made him normal. He told that his company is not new one. It is eternal.

I asked him ‘where is your shop? Show me samples. It has much selling.

He said ‘I do not have shop, it is small but it has too much value. Stay some day here and you will know everything.

After staying, I threw out my torch box and start new business.

After moving hand on he told ‘one month wait only.’

I asked him ‘what will you do now?’

He told ‘I will do same thing but with new company.

Cautions For Not to Get Cancer

LATEST CANCER INFORMATION
from Johns Hopkins

AFTER YEARS OF TELLING PEOPLE CHEMOTHERAPY IS THE ONLY WAY TO TRY AND ELIMINATE CANCER, JOHNS HOPKINS IS FINALLY STARTING TO TELL YOU THERE IS AN ALTERNATIVE WAY …

1. Every person has cancer cells in the body. These cancer cells do not show up in the standard tests until they have multiplied to a few billion. When doctors tell cancer patients that there are no more cancer cells in their bodies after treatment, it just means the tests are unable to detect the cancer cells because they have not reached the detectable size.

2. Cancer cells occur between 6 to more than 10 times in a person's lifetime.

3. When the person's immune system is strong the cancer cells will be destroyed and prevented from multiplying and forming tumors.

4. When a person has cancer it indicates the person has multiple nutritional deficiencies. These could be due to genetic, environmental, food and lifestyle factors.

5. To overcome the multiple nutritional deficiencies, changing diet and including supplements will strengthen the immune system.

6. Chemotherapy involves poisoning the rapidly-growing cancer cells and also destroys rapidly-growing healthy cells in the bone marrow, gastro-intestinal tract etc, and can cause organ damage, like liver, kidneys, heart, lungs etc.

7. Radiation while destroying cancer cells also burns, scars and damages healthy cells, tissues and organs.

8. Initial treatment with chemotherapy and radiation will often reduce tumor size. However prolonged use of chemotherapy and radiation do not result in more tumor destruction.

9. When the body has too much toxic burden from chemotherapy and radiation the immune system is either compromised or destroyed, hence the person can succumb to various kinds of infections and complications.

10. Chemotherapy and radiation can cause cancer cells to mutate and become resistant and difficult to destroy. Surgery can also cause cancer cells to spread to other sites.

11. An effective way to battle cancer is to STARVE the cancer cells by not feeding it with foods it needs to multiple.

What cancer cells feed on:

a. Sugar is a cancer-feeder. By cutting off sugar it cuts off one important food supply to the cancer cells. Note: Sugar substitutes like NutraSweet, Equal, Spoonful, etc are made with Aspartame and it is harmful. A better natural substitute would be Manuka honey or molasses but only in very small amounts. Table salt has a chemical added to make it white in colour. Better alternative is Bragg's aminos or sea salt.

b. Milk causes the body to produce mucus, especially in the gastro-intestinal tract. Cancer feeds on mucus. By cutting off milk and substituting with unsweetened soy milk, cancer cells will starved.

c. Cancer cells thrive in an acid environment. A meat-based diet is acidic and it is best to eat fish, and a little chicken rather than beef or pork. Meat also contains livestock antibiotics, growth hormones and parasites, which are all harmful, especially to people with cancer.

d. A diet made of 80% fresh vegetables and juice, whole grains, seeds, nuts and a little fruits help put the body into an alkaline environment. About 20% can be from cooked food including beans. Fresh vegetable juices provide live enzymes that are easily absorbed and reach down to cellular levels within 15 minutes t o nourish and enhance growth of healthy cells.

To obtain live enzymes for building healthy cells try and drink fresh vegetable juice (most vegetables including bean sprouts) and eat some raw vegetables 2 or 3 times a day. Enzymes are destroyed at temperatures of 104 degrees F (40 degrees C).

e. Avoid coffee, tea, and chocolate, which have high caffeine. Green tea is a better alternative and has cancer-fighting properties. Water--best to drink purified water, or filtered, to avoid known toxins and heavy metals in tap water. Distilled water is acidic, avoid it.

12. Meat protein is difficult to digest and requires a lot of digestive enzymes. Undigested meat remaining in the intestines will become putrified and leads to more toxic buildup.

13. Cancer cell walls have a tough protein covering. By refraining from or eating less meat it frees more enzymes to attack the protein walls of cancer cells and allows the body's killer cells to destroy the cancer cells.

14. Some supplements build up the immune system (IP6, Flor-ssence, Essiac, anti-oxidants, vitamins, minerals, EFAs etc.) to enable the body's own killer cells to destroy cancer cells. Other supplements like vitamin E are known to cause apoptosis, or programmed cell death, the body's normal method of disposing of damaged, unwanted, or unneeded cells.

15. Cancer is a disease of the mind, body, and spirit. A proactive and positive spirit will help the cancer warrior be a survivor.

Anger, unforgiving and bitterness put the body into a stressful and acidic environment. Learn to have a loving and forgiving spirit. Learn to relax and enjoy life.

16. Cancer cells cannot thrive in an oxygenated environment. Exercising daily, and deep breathing help to get more oxygen down to the cellular level. Oxygen therapy is another means employed to destroy cancer cells.

You are with me

You are with me,

You live in my heart,

 It’s like a dream, being alone

Without you I am nothing,

I lost myself when I am not with you, seems something in missing in me.

You are my booster,

No one can love anyone,

My heart chose your heart,

Who wants to share his sorrow with you,

Dreams seem impossible,

Destroys my intentions, minds, ideas,

Unknown strength helps me to get rid of this,

People say it, the two step journey of love,

But lovers say, we want to live a whole life in these two steps,

This is endless path, which is not gonna end,

With you.

Psychiatric Treatment

The sadness of Tanu hurt me. She has car, bungalow and all comfort of life; even then she is not happy. Her sad eyes come to me anyway. It looks like they want to say not to leave her and without me, she can’t handle things.

   Tanu was fond of dressing herself, but now she stands in front of a mirror undesirably. She used to reading. It hurts more when as a writer his recognition, search a pen in the whole house for making provisional store lists. There are so many things which are vanishing from Tanu’s life. I fear that after all these, tuna should not be hidden somewhere.

  Love of shade was grabbed from me when I had a similar condition like tuna. We loved each other too much, but my mother had an image of her daughter in law as inter-caste, fair and enough finance. I was being a good song that’s I couldn't accept Sharda. Sharda was too hurt by this decision and she cried too much, but now Tanu cries many times today.

  Santosh, what are you thinking? We need to see a doctor. See whether Tanu is ready or not. After hearing mother’s words, I came back in the present.

  After sitting in the car, mother said that she showed Kundali to the priest. He was told to do some pray. Whatever, we only can have that were written in luck. I stopped the car in front of psychiatric. Tanu asked in a stingy way that we were going to the temple? Then I got angry on mother because only she told me that tanu wants to see a doctor. Before I could say, mother told that Tanu don’t feel good? Don’t be panic, doctor will handle all your problem and she holds her hand and crossed the road. Then I felt that during my foreign trip, mother and Tanu had been changed too much.

  They met the doctor and told him ‘Tanu is disturbed by forgetting things. Sometimes, she doesn’t take weeks. She irritates suddenly. Rest things, you can ask to Tanu. Sir, I have requested that I don’t want vaccinate treatment on Tanu.

Three counseling in month made difference in Tanu’s attitude, but the mother was not satisfied. She asked the doctor to vaccinate due to Canada journey. We need better tanu as soon as possible. This time, the doctor clearly told that Tanu don’t have that problem which one you are thinking.

I saw her deep crying at night. As a husband, I wanted to join her, but emotions of son forced me to turn side in bed. After sometime, she took care of herself and got sleep, but I could not. My mind was moving around the faces of Tanu and mother. I did not want to challenge my mother’s thing in this age. She connects each thing to his self- respect. On the other side, I can’t leave tuna on her in this condition. During these disturbed days, I got a Tanu’s diary. She had written that if god asked me for being next birth, I will tell god to not be daughter of poor father because this big demerit in the cast. I was married in 27 when I was prepared for each problem and struggle in the family. It was too difficult to take decision on wedding in this situation. Santosh’s honesty and simplicity attracted me to marry him. Before choosing santosh as life partner, I thought something.

1.      Rising family under solid father.

2.      A mother which guides me to live my domestic life.

3.      Loving, satisfied, responsible family with great passion can handle each tough situation in life.

4.      I want a daughter in family because only daughter having family can understand giving daughter to another home.

These things were that much important to me that I could not mind the money of Santosh.

I entered into my new home under the sunrays of life, but happiness was gone for new bride just after a few days. From starts, people were telling me expenditure in weddings. All about food, welcome, bus rent, photography to cloth, jewelry, gifts had been telling me. After these things, they start talking about dowry. If the family doesn't have anything but relative can do something. Even after all these narrow minded talking, I entered in kitchen with new spirit. I thought this was a good opportunity to get mother-in-law’s heart by asking each thing. I have known various types of sweet and dishes besides daily food, but this match was not enough for good daughter-in-law. She always reminds me my mother and tells me that she didn't teach me anything. Every girl has to hear these words. I could understand these things. After the kitchen, they started on my education, speaking, living. With name of any relative, they remind that my husband doesn’t have the good fortune because he is fair and I am skinny. Home coming guests were told that my husband doesn’t want me to take somewhere with him because I do not know to speak English.

Sometimes this thing rises to me that I am shamed for my husband not proud. I did not have interest in daily works. I used to get mistaken, even after care, but I had a new name in family ‘absent mind’ now.

At last, I raised my tongue against my name. Then what, at each point, they start to try to prove themselves. After boiling water in kitchen, voice comes that I forgot to switch off the gas. Opened car door, hot water from geezer, cooking; them reminds me my mistake.

Nine month pregnancy was too difficult for me. Now, muskan was in my life. Again, same was happening. This time it was my mother. Voice of ‘my child did not weep even after that much work’ was moving in my room. I could get my daughter only for food. I can’t claim my right on raising muskan. Quarrel comes when I hug my daughter. With complaints, we, husband and wife were getting distance, but I could not tolerate these things for muskan. I was broken inside.

On the track of this life, I have passed many difficulties, but I can’t handle it now. My happiness is not to eat McDonald pizza, expensive cloth, touring in the car. A happy family only needs a little love. I saw breaking family due to dowry ritual. I had fear about this. Santosh chose a writer as life partner, but pen is dying in his home. Her words are becoming invisible and story is in misdirection. How can you guess the condition of the writer?

Tanu’s diary introduced me about her problem. She was not sick, only looking way was wrong. This was the same reason for avoiding love of sharda. To recovery, I want to be with Tanu. I have made the decision to take her and muskan to Canada. Relativity has more importance than nonsense ritual. Mother can understand these things in distance of a few years. It is the only treatment of tetanus problem.

Disease belongs either physically or mentally, it is necessary to find out actual reason. Sometimes it is more difficult. There limit about telling or showing mistakes, if you cross that limit, then person either will hate you or it. It should not be done only to get dominated.